Fat Boys

I'm petite and weigh 110 pounds. I do nothing to maintain my weight, love to eat and have been blessed to be thin. I typically like my men tall and athletic build...muscles are nice, but definitely fit and in shape. Never been into big, meaning fat men. But for some reason they are into me... In the past few weeks I've met about 5 very heavy set men, who all seem to like little 'ole me.

Each approached me in their own round about way. LOL! I've chatted with them all and they all seem to be nice guys. None of them have children, have never been married and each seem to be doing well in their lives. They each live alone in their own homes, have several cars, like to travel and enjoy life. And I have the most important thing in common with each of them...the love of food.

Hmmmmm, so for many woman all those great qualities would make these guys a good catch. Right? No, wrong... I'm not interested. I guess I'm discriminating against the Big Boys. I know that's wrong but, I want to be attracted to the guy and I don't find fat attractive. They are all very sweet and thoughtful, but not my type. I feel like I should feel bad. But, I don't like fat boys.

Sleepless

Another sleepless night...It's been months and months since I've had a full good nights sleep. I stay up late (till 12 or 1 am), wake up around 2:30-3am and then have to really get up, to wake the kids at 5am. And then, I'm up for the day. I would think weekends would be sleep in days, but that never happens and I still wake up at 5am without fail. Someone told me, that his sleepless nights were due to stress. That at wee hours of the night, his mind is racing...how to take over the world. And I must agree.

I am stressed to death!!! I'm a living, walking zombie. My mind can get no rest, it's on non stop status...go here, do this, do that(HOW?)...pay this, pay that (WITH WHAT?)take care of this, take care of that (WOW!) and it goes on...

All the sleep aids in the world haven't and don't help...even accompanied with a shot of tequila, a cocktail, or glass of wine. Still no sleep. And the silence is SOOOO loud. GRRRRRRR

to be continued....